Although I always felt like a man inside a man’s body, biology began to do its thing. Around my 35th birthday I felt my testosterone levels begin to decline. I had less energy and found it harder to recover from workouts.
I thus began testosterone replacement therapy, a form of hormone replacement therapy transgenders use when undergoing the process of transitioning.
Since then I have suffered considerable body shaming and transphobia.
Before talking about the discrimination I face, which is extensive, let’s talk about what testosterone replacement therapy is and how transgenders use it.
How does your body produce testosterone?
The physiological mechanisms behind how the body produces testosterone is complex. The hypothalamus- the part of your brain responsible for endocrine function – releases a hormone that signals to your pituitary gland to release more hormones (follicle stimulating hormone and luteinizing hormone), which in turn tell your testicles to produce testosterone.
Thus while “big balls” are what we think of when talking about testosterone, in truth there are a lot of complicated signaling mechanisms going on behind the scenes.
As a man gets older, his body produces less testosterone naturally. As we live in a polluted society, even young men do not produce enough testosterone naturally.
Currently men have the lowest testosterone levels in recorded history.
What is testosterone replacement therapy/hormone replacement therapy?
If you have a female brain inside a male body, as Caitlyn does, your body naturally produces testosterone.
When a man undergoes the transition from “naturally male” to “enhanced male,” he uses hormones to change how his body functions. Females who transition to males also use testosterone replacement therapy to develop the male body they also felt belonged to them.
Doctors will tell you testosterone levels naturally fall with age. According to the modern medical establishment, aging is a natural biological process. Deal with.
Yes, men should learn to deal with:
- lower bone mass,
- higher rates of depression,
- decreased libidio,
- lower sense of overall well being,
- and generate fatigue.
See, Decreased Testosterone in the Aging Male. (“Testosterone deficiency in the aging male is associated with the loss of libido, erectile dysfunction, depression, decreased cognitive ability, lethargy, osteoporosis, and loss of muscle mass and strength.”)
The medical establishment is transphobic.
Some, such as male-to-male transgenders, believe aging is a disease. We believe our male brains deserve to live in healthy male bodies.
Because of this, we undergo testosterone replacement therapy – or TRT for short.
Under the supervision of a physician, I self-administer 200 mg of Sustanon every 5-7 days.
Male-to-male transgenders suffer massive amounts of transphobia.
As a result of using exogenous testosterone, a man’s testicles begin to atrophy. Although the results are overstated, the shrinkage is approximately 25%. There are ways to mitigate the shrinkage – using HCG, for example. To be honest having larger-than-average testicles is sort of annoying.
(This is the type of transphobia I suffer each day.)
Sure, I admit my balls have shrunk 25% on steroids, but it's not like I'm compensating for this with over-aggression pic.twitter.com/FzK53XZY1S
— Fake Mike Cernovich (@FakeCernovich) November 19, 2014
Large testicles make it harder to ride an exercise bike, and don’t offer any aesthetic benefits.
Shaming small testicles is cis-normative and transphobic.
What is it about having “big balls” that makes a man a man? Saying my testicles are small is based on outdated models of gender identity and construction. It is also transphobic.
While telling me my testicles are small has no effect on my self-esteem and self-worth (after all, my haters only know this because I’ve talked about it), it does evidence your own biases and bigotry. Check your privilege.
I support Bruce / Caitlyn Jenner’s right to transition.
Caitlyn is likely undergoing hormone replacement therapy but taking estrogen and testosterone-suppressing drugs.
As Caitlyn had a female brain inside a male body, her body produced an immense amount of testosterone – enough to win an Olympic gold medal and sire several beautiful daughters and handsome sons.
As a libertarian, I believe in the right to self-determination. If Bruce felt he had a female brain and desires a female body to match it, who are you to say otherwise? Get a life, busybodies.
On the other hand, if I feel like my aging male body needs a boost, who are you to tell me otherwise?
Although mocking my “small testicles” is transphobic, I do not take offense.
Most people are ignorant about gender identity. They do not realize there is a “male brain” and a “female brain,” and that gender identity has a deep biological basis.
But biology is not perfect. Sometimes a female brain finds itself in a male body. To fail to recognize this is scientifically ignorant, just as it’s ignorant to claim gender identity is not biological.
In fact, it confused me when people on “my side of the Internet” mock Caitlyn.
I understand we are being indoctrinated with transgendered propaganda, and the media should be mocked for pushing an agenda.
But why care? What’s it to you?
Unless you’ve had a seven-figure payday, academic and athletic accomplishments: Why care about Jenner’s masculinity?
Hint: Men of genuine accomplishment don’t actually care.
Jenner, whatever gender she was, is an Olympic gold medalist, multi-millionaire, and father (mother now, I guess) to several children.
Unless you’ve had similar accolades, perhaps you should find a better hobby than sniping at the elite.
What good does it do you actually caring about Caitlyn Jenner? I understand causing controversy for page views. But if you actually have an emotional investment in the personal decisions of an unrelated human being, perhaps reflect upon why that is.
I firmly support Caitlyn Jenner’s right to live as she desires. (Of course my tax dollars should not support sexual reassignment surgeries, but that’s a different issue.)
I also believe transphobia against male-to-male transgenders such as myself must end.
The changes my body made during the transition were remarkable.
I suddenly had more energy. My thinking was crisper. My sense of well-being improved. I just felt more “on.”
My results are not atypical. Gay writer Andrew Sullivan saved his writing career by undergoing TRT.
Although I’m a male-to-male transgender, I don’t have any shame.
It’s my body and my life.
If I want to use exogenous hormones like testosterone to improve my life, I will.
I will not apologize for that decision. I will not explain it to simpletons. I will not allow people to tell me about all of the risks they heard about on television.
My decision to undergo TRT was fully informed.
I had blood tests done beginning around my 27th birthday. I monitored my cholesterol level, fasting insulin level, and yes my testosterone level. I watched all of my biomarkers of health remain healthy while my testosterone level decline.
Once my testosterone level kissed 500 (the range on labs is 325 to 1,215), which was slightly below average, I began my transition and started taking TRT.
My blood test results are excellent.
Unlike my haters, who tend to be obese, I post my blood work online. If you cross-reference my blood test results with what the Mayo Clinic has determined is optimal, then I get an A+.
What blood tests should a man order?
When I had health insurance, I would order whatever blood tests the doctor would allow me to order.
As part of an annual exams, which you should get done if you’re over 25, you’ll get your liver (AST and ALT), kidney (urea and BUN), and heart (cholesterol and lipids) measured.
If you’re a man who wants to get your testosterone level checked, tell your doctor you have low libido and low energy, as they often won’t order the test unless you pester them.
Ask to have both your free and total testosterone levels checked.
Your doctor may call you to tell you all your labs are “normal.” That is not a sufficient answer. Ask to see original copies of your lab work and keep them for your records. These records will help you define a baseline by which you may measure your overall health.
How can you get blood tests done if you don’t have insurance?
As I either didn’t have insurance or was self-employed, I began using a company called Private MD Labs for several years. I order their premium produce, the Male Athletic Anti-Aging Panel (click here). Then again, I take my health more seriously than most. I want to live a long life of optimal health.
The Male Athletic Anti-Aging Panel hits pretty much every important biomarker for men, including free and total testosterone, heart, kidneys, and liver function. If anything, it’s information overload.
How do you order blood tests?
1. Go to Private MD Labs by clicking here.
2. Add the labs/blood tests you want to order to your shopping cart. You can order hundreds of different tests, including STD tests. I recommend:
- The Male Athletic Anti-Aging Panel (here) for a full blood workup.
- The Testosterone test (here) if you just want to know your free and total testosterone levels.
3. Choose a lab location. This is where you will go to actually get your blood drawn.
4. Type in the Private MD Labs coupon code HEALTHY12 to save 12%.
5. Pay them the reduce priced after using the coupon code.
6. Private MD Labs will email you the lab requisition papers, usually within 24 hours.
7. Bring the lab paperwork with you to the lab. You must print this out yourself.
8. Generally you should fast overnight before having blood tests done. Check to see if you need to.
9. Get labs drawn.
10. Wait for you results, which usually arrive within 24-72 hours.
11. Read my article about optimal male blood tests, and check out the Mayo Clinic, which explains your lab values in great detail.
P.S. I have several more posts about blood tests for men.
The decision to make the transition to a male-to-male transgender was fully-informed and fully personal.
You don’t have to respect it and you may live your life as you desire.
For me it was a no-brainer. I want to live a long time experiencing all the joys life brings.
I very much have a male brain, much as Caitlyn Jenner has a female brain. My male brain deserves a home in a male body, just as Caitlyn deserves to live in the body of her choice.
Ultimately, the decision to undergo TRT is one for you to make with your doctor. It’s a personal choice for which you owe no one any explanation or excuse.